Because the audio post isn’t working…
I feel… I’m not sure.
I think way too much than I should.
I suddenly feel weak and tired.
I have a few tasks to complete before I could seek the refuge of shutting everything out and just sleeping…
And if I can’t sleep at least I could just lay still…
I think I gave too much of myself away today.
For some reason.
Okay, I think I’m getting the high a little like the one I had when I got my helix piercing because of my cut :))
I shall show you my hair maybe after this week? So my co-interns see it before it shows up on FB or something :))
Idk if it’s anything big but meeeeeeh :))
Okay, usually I’m the first to think “naw, how could anyone want to look at me?” or “There are tons of better people here. How am *I* any special?” and that sort of thing but let’s try something different where I’ll be slightly more than confident? Where I’ll make supposedly false notions and such and just not include any downer statements, yes?
Let’s begin with what my mom said yesterday after the cut.
Mom one of the stylists: “Baka naman ma-ligawan naman yan bigla!” (“Someone might court her all of a sudden!”)
And though inside I was like “Ugh. I wish.” I was still fluttering because I really liked the cut.
I’ve always wanted to try shorter hair.
Less shampoo, less fuss, shorter drying time, etc.
But for one reason or another (certain people liking longer hair, being scared that shorter hair won’t suit my face, etc.) I’ve always either went “naaaaah” or “I’ma do it!” then chickened out.
For some reason, yesterday I was like “Meh, come on Mara, you know you want it. If it fails, it’ll take a while but it WILL grow back. No backing down now. Nope. Nuh uh. Still no. Heyyyyyyyy it actually looks GOOD”
Since then I’ve been all “zOMG I LOVE MY NEW HURRRRRRR” and all.
But that intro’s been too long, yes? Let’s get back on track.
So we were at church today, chose a different than usual because the usual was hella cold.
Moments later, a family came.
The dude caught my eye only slightly but I was too busy flitting my attention about to really notice.
But then he ended up sitting nearby.
So I was chill, I’d just sing and act as I would.
But I kept feeling him glancing my direction.
And from the intro, you know how my thoughts go, right?
But the moment when I thought “hey, maybe he *was/is/might be* looking at me” was when people were finishing their prayers post-receiving host at communion and he was glancing my way again. Then when I was turning my head to look his was and he was going to turn his head to look my way but when he saw I was going to turn my head his way, his head snapped to the opposite direction! How do I know? THAT’S MY MOVE! I stalk and stalk and then when I see a look back I go “HOLYCRAPMARALOOKAWAYOMGAWKWARDMOVEBUTGOOD!LOOKAWAY” haha! Then I didn’t anymore and still felt the looking my direction thing.
The funny thing?
Kept running into him and his sister.
The moment with the “peace be with you?”
We looked at each other smiled and bade each other the greeting.
His chinky eyes.
OH GOODNESS I WAS ALL A FLUTTER.
But of course, just a regular smile and shiz on the outside.
I swear, it’s always a guys’ eyes and smile that gets me.
When it’s the initial physical crap.
Then I get critical about wit, humor and such :))
When I think about it.
I could be wrong
I could be HORRIBLY wrong
but who cares!?
So it’s not exactly “ligaw”/courtship like my mom’s all bleh about.
Here’s to hoping this happens more often! :p
Now I have to get back to all the stuff I gotta do.
Current wallpaper :)) Taken today. Cute. So far the one that’s lasted longest ‘til I got bored with it was Jiggy’s “(I Don’t) Care Bear. Let’s see how this one stands.
The fates have spoken.
Needed a break.
Started with errands.
Then more errands.
Bought a wallet.
Because my now old one is srsly sad looking.
Got a haircut.
PS. That’s just to the left of my chair. There’s more at the back and at the right side.
Domo helped me through it.
Dinner at someplace new.
With seizure-inducing LED thing on the ceiling.
A set-up that reminded me of Sbarro
A meh kinda small serving.
Place - 3.5 out of 5 stars
Staff - 3.5 out of 5 stars
Taste - 4 out of 5 stars
Value for money - 3 out of 5 stars
Idk. It was delicious but you don’t leave feeling like you eat ___php worth of food, y’know?
And if you’re wondering what the cut’s like, I’m not sure if it’ll be up since I want it to be a surprise for anyone else. I wonder if anyone would even notice :))
So that’s that.
I’ve been wanting shorter hair for a LONG while now but I’ve been iffy about it.
Glad I was like “to hell with it” today.
So there’s a clue :))
Didn’t want to mention much because at times when girls are like “UGH IT’S SHORTER!” and they kinda look the same..? Yeah. Wanna avoid that.